It's Spring~

I don't know why

but i think i saw flowers in my heart

<3 <3 <3

aku ingat aku dah berjaya lupakan dia

but who knows

just by seeing he passed by me

and...

IT'S SPRING~

aku x nmpk dia pon sbnarnya 

sbb otak aku memang tengah fokus nk balik bilik je

then bila aku dengar someone called my name

aku pon angkat muka

tp bukan dia la yg panggil nama aku

memang mimpi xkan jadi kenyataan la kalo dia yg panggil nama aku

classmate aku yg panggil aku dari arah depan

dengan cuaca yg SANGAT panas

aku  mengalami masalah utk pandang kwn aku

well....silau kan...nk wat cmne

after aku respond kwn aku

aku cm prasan someone familiar kt blakang kwn aku

even aku x fokus sgt dgn pnglihatan aku

but my heart does skip a bit~

and...

now i can't stop smiling

coz...

IT'S SPRING~

ehemm...ehemm...

14 Mac 2012

Wah wah....dah lama aku x rasa mcm nie. 

Aku rasa tenang n a little happy. 

I'm not sure it's true or not but I think I had fall for someone. 

Aku xtau la fall in love or just a crush sbb aku x pernah rasa cmnie sblm2 nie.

 Bdak yg aku mksudkan nie aku jmpa dlm kelas Ko-Q (fesilitator). 

Nama dia start with H n he is born in March. 

I know coz our 1^st class is to sit dlm grup dgn someone yg lahir sama bulan dgn kita. 

Dia quite friendly. 

Banyak ckp jgk and the most shocking news is...

he is the same age with my 2^nd bro which born in 1987. 

Wahhh....but dia baru 1^st year like me. 

This is because after SPM dia amik STAM then Diploma and finally Degree. 

Wow~ Not only his age is the same with my bro but also his characteristic. 

He is about my bro height, wear big spectacle, 

kind of nerdy + poyo and also funny. 

The thing is whenever I look at him, he kind of remind me of my brother. 

His action, his style and also his word. 

Everything is look the same. 

The fact that I know is girl tend to fall for a guy that had similarity with their father, 

not brother but what am I doing?? 

For me he is really like the word that I keep holding on which is 

“Cute guys make you crazy. 

Hot guys make you drool. 

Cool guys make you daydream. 

But funny guys make you fall in love without ever knowing.” 

I think i see all of the criteria in him. 

Cute with the expression, hot when he focus, 

cool when he pose and always funny with his action. 

But who knows, mybe i really had fall for him <3 

and it make my Wednesday as a happy day~

Persahabatan????

aku x pernah guna the word SAHABAT 

unless dia tu someone yg betul2 aku rasa layak utk dapat gelaran tu dlm diri aku

pada aku status persahabatan nie ada peringkatnya

memula start dgn 

KENALAN - sgt ramai sbb ke mana kita pergi kita akan berkenalan dgn someone

KAWAN - kita dah knal dia n dia pon knal kita, tau nama kita n wat kerja sesama

SAHABAT - upper dari kawan sbb dia memahami kita n kita memahami dia

SAHABAT BAIK - saling memahami n miliki minat yg sama n sering luang masa bersama

BFF - yg nie adalah status yg paling tinggi skali. X sume bley ada nie unless kwn kita bbtul paham kita, minat yg sama, share everything and always be together like belangkas

the story here yg aku nk share is about

one of my housemate

aku x ingt sama da aku pernah share ke x sblm ni

psal bdk pelik dlm rumah aku...hehe

ok...the story start with Monday

perangai dia ok cm selalu "agak" gila2

and always annoyed me

mlm tu ktorg g dgr cramah

then after balik ceramah suddenly she acting MORE weirder

not talking to anybody

not smiling 

and not crazy anymore

perangai dia jadi camtu agk lama jgk la

and yg paling aku perasan 

kalo dia mpk aku dia akan lari

itu dlm rumah je la

tapi sbb ktorg sama kls, course n fakulti,

of coz aku sntiasa nmpk dia

n the more wat aku pnas hati is

dia JELING aku

@#$%^

mmg slalu kuar dari mulut aku la

dia x ckp kt aku apa msalah nya
aku taua ku nie jnis yg kasar bhasa
n kalo ckp pon bnyi cam nk marah je

tp msa kt tmpt kjadian bkn aku sorg je yg kluarkan kata2 kasar
housemate2 yg lain pon ckp jgk
and word yg ktorg sume kluarkan sblm dia berperangai cmtu just
"BERATUR"

so???
yg touching sgt apasal?
dulu beria-ia kata aku ni best friend dia
(biapon aku x anggap dia cmtu)
tp still x paham perangai n style aku
pada aku dia xlayak seberang status KAWAN
n aku jgk bley buh dia kt status KENALAN je
sbb dah 2 sem nie tp dia still xingt nama aku
i mean my full name

hello....
we are housemate ok
kalo ko skadar classmate aku je aku bley trima
nie housemate aku lol
hari2 ko ngadap muka aku pon
nama aku ko still xtau
mmg @#$%^
utk ko la

sgt NOT FAIR aku je yg memainkan peranan sbgai kwn
apa yg ko tau sgt pasal persahabatan??
kt FB beria-ia bermadah pujangga psal persahabatan
ada ke ko amalkan?
(ok...better aku stop takat sini sblm aku baling lappy aku nie)

salam~

It's All About The Money

today i nearly going crazy because of money

money is everything nowadays,

without money i feel like i can't survive in this cruel world

the story began when my friend, Bad asked me weather i free or not this afternoon

since my discussion ends quite early and i had no where to go

because all of my housemate are out to Kuching 

so i agree to follow her with her friend to Pustaka Negeri Sarawak s

ince i never been there before

i'm so innocent

i knew it is a library

so i thought maybe we all going to go there to look for books that not at CAIS

but suddenly,

they brought us to Bilik Seminar

we had to write our name n phone number on a piece of list paper before we go in

inside there,

the were a talk

about Score A's

i never heard about it before

at first i thought

WTH am i doing here?

Score A's???

this has nothing to do with me

i don't have little sis nor little bro that will use that thing

but suddenly at the second slot 

a very handsome guy came out and talk about business

even though i not so in business

but that guy is so....<3

when it come to business,

of course there will be MONEY related

based on my understanding about this THINGs

we also will get money if we manage to attract people to be their agent like we do

for example,

we pay 796 n we got the THING

we promote it to 2 people then take them to the preview like what i did today,

i will receive an income about 1000+

then if they also attract to do like what i do to them,

their income will double my income to almost 2000+

well.....that business,

even though i'm quite confuse at 1st

i'm very interested since it is related to MONEY

if people know me better

i'm a MONEY LOVER~

but this sort of business is quite hard for me

i don't have money to start it

if it below 100 i think i can

but it almost 800

and the amount is equally to my semester fees

to tell the truth,

i really2 interested

since lately there always a thing that i wanna buy 

like the kpop merchandise that keep pop up at my FB home page

seriously i want it but i don't have money

coz i never worked before

all of my income are coming from my parent

they had supported me for ages

not that i want to say that i'm rich

but

my parent are manage to support me

so...

now i feel quite burden since 

Bad's friend had quite hard time to find a client

but me and Bad had a hard heart to accept this sort of business

T.T

mianei~

i think i had to say NO this time

I feel Horobble

apa maksudnya 

bila kita rasa sebak dlm hati hnya kerana perkara kecik 

(berkaitan lain jantina)?

seperti biasa hari ni aku mnghabiskan masa aku dpn lappy

FB mnjadi peneman sekejap

sedang aku syok2 baca news feed kt home page

ttba aku nmpk satu status nie

sbnarnya time tarikh tu aku dah baca status tu

tp aku x rasa pape pon

agaknya sbb baru post kot

ttba hari nie aku nmpk bnyk plak org komen + like

n even best fren dia pon komen jgk

aku xtau knapa tp seriously aku rasa cm sebak

not sure whether it is sebak or sesak

 tp something is definitely wrong somewhere at my chest area 

even kwn aku ajk turun g kafe jap pon rasa x smngat

dia buat lwk pon aku xtau nk gelak ke x

what does it mean?

aku x pernah rasa cmni

n aku x suka rasa cmni

am i jealous?

huh..aku tau aku dah x suka dia

lps dia ckp yg dia x layak utk aku

(walaupun aku just saja2 ja mnggatal dgn dia time tu)

pfffttt...

well....i hope this feeling will not come back

coz it really killing me out

owh...ya

kalo korg prasan aku da circle kt like tu

hahaa...

saja ja aku like status dia tu

utk tnjuk kt dia yg aku ada baca status JIWANG dia nie

wow...i'm a bad girl~

A whole new.....

waahhh....

dah lama plak aku x luahkan perasaan aku kt sini...hehe

annyong everyone...

apa khabar?

harap2 sihat la...kalo sakit, aku xdpt nk tlg...hehe

wow...pejam, celik, pejam, celik...

dah hbis pon sebulan cuti sem aku..

cepatnya masa berlalu,

aku dah nk masuk sem 2 pon

segalanya perlukan berdikari ye...

especially bab2 study nie...

huuu....sdeynya aku

sem 2 nie aku dah x sama dgn grup member aku sem lepas

sumenye sbb kna register course online sndiri,

line kt umah aku mmg slow so lama la jgk aku nk access tnet

n mmg bkn jdoh aku dgn DD (kwn aku) utk sama kls

ktorg just sama utk 1 kls je hari jumaat

so seminggu skali je la dpt jmpa dia

story about 1st class,

klas Human Resource Development a.k.a HRD

kalo ikut jdual lecturer aku Mdm. Sheilla

tp ttba Ms. Agatha (lecturer yg mnlepaskn geram ktika exam OM dulu kalo aku da citer la)

yg msuk kelas aku,

perhhh....

dah la aku dok dpn skali kot

seriously aku ckp

aku sgt gerun dgn dia

she is so over-confident

n ia mmbuatkn aku rasa sgt2 jelez..

n times fly in that class

then she suddenly ask question about HRM

adusss...

dah la aku mmg agk kureng dgn subjek tu

tup...tup

dia dah da dpn aku suh aku jwb soalan dia

aku nie mmg lemah smngt skit kalo ttba dpt soalan yg mngejut cmtu

so...aku pon tergamam la

seb bek dia x kata pape 

n move forward pada org lain

tp mmg la...

habis kelas tu

aku rasa sgt sesak nafas

rasa cm udara kt sekeliling aku x ckup utk aku

+ aku pon hmpir nk mnangis

Ms. Agatha nie buat aku rasa sgt kecil dlm dunia nie

bkn je dunia aku rasa dlm UNIMAS tu trus

sume kata2 dia asyik bermain kt fikiran aku sampai aku balik bilik

tnpa pikir pnjg aku terus tnya roomate aku (senior course aku gak)

kalo2 dia da buku rjukan HRD

aku rasa cm nk sgt2 stdy sbjek tu time tu jgk

rasa resah n gelisah

perasaan takut + risau mngganggu hati aku

aku mula fikir betul ke course nie sesuai utk aku

aku terima course ni dulu sbb 

aku rasa Allah knows what is best for me

but now...

people around me make me fell like an idiot..

Dia....

finally exam dah abis...
alhamdulillah.....

dah nk masuk sem baru pon...

x sabar plak...huhu

okay...

back to the title.

Hari nie aku nk share skit

maybe bnyi not appropriate tp still kena luahkan sblum dia makan diri aku...

hari nie hari sabtu 

so cm biasa adat melayu

ada kenduri~

dgn paksa rela nya aku ikut mak aku g knduri

n aku ternmpk someone yg mmg dah lama aku x nmpk

kalo korg da baca status fb aku, aku da tulis

slps 2 tahun lbey x jumpa, muka dia still nmpk sama

lbey kurg cmtu la

aku mksudkan my 1st and only secret admire

aku ternmpk dia td

n aku x sure dia perasan aku ke x..

dia nie senior aku kt skolah dulu,

time aku form 1 n dia form 3,

dia kata nk jadi abg angkt aku

tp aku tolak sbb aku dah ada 3 org abg

then, time aku form 2,

dia ckp kt kwn aku yg dia suka aku

well...

aku yg sgt2 la innocent nie pon tolak dia

sbb time tu aku mmg buta tntg kapel2 nie (cinta monyet terutamanya)

x pernah terlintas lnsung

time umur nie apa yg aku tau just suka biasa2 je

cam attracted cmtu

tp dia x give up

sampai dia hbis form 5 pon kwn aku ckp dia still suka aku lagi

aku ingt lagi time dulu2

bdk2 nakal suka pkai kmeja lengan pnjang 

(dia nie salah sorg bdk nakal kt skolah aku yg da merit teruk)

so....bila kwn aku ckp kt aku dia suka aku,

aku pon cari alasan n ckp aku x suka laki yg pkai lengan pnjg

who knows...

esoknya dia x paki lengan pnjg dah..

aku pon dah mcm..

ok...what should i do..

finally aku mmg x bley bg jwpn n aku just abaikan je.

lupakan everything like diorg x prnah ckp pape kt aku

bila ternmpk dia pon kalo bley try the best guna jln lain

asalkan x bertentang mata dgn dia

so...bila aku ternmpk dia td,

aku teringt balik sume2 yg dah berlaku time skolah dulu

aku jgk terfikir,

if aku trima dia dulu,

adakah aku dah dpt 1 pngalaman 

yg sume kwn aku ada except for aku sorg?

well.....only Allah knows the answer